Intro:
I had been convincing myslf fr last 1 and half yrs dat I shud blog... but as title of my blog says, am a dheeth...I dnt do sumthng till I really wnt to do it. Now, since I had given up writing nethng since long bck...i tht dat I had kept the pen down frever bt i guess dats not the case ne more...
After so many persuasions by so many ppl, and so many questions by ppl dat y I dont write, finally today wen am all alone by myself sitting in my balcony in a remote place which I need not mention and today wen i hve nthng else to do, I have finally made my mind empty, and managed to concentrated all my thoughts in one place ( dnt knw if its the effect of my lonliness or last night's sleeping pill). Now i've setteled my butt to write sumthng, and this first post of mine is going to be my heart spilled out to you guys ( whoever is reading this shit, believe me if I was you, I'd have tht of reading sumthng better, in few wrds, I pity you), you guys still out there...or gone after that caution...well I really dnt care fr yoou, I am doing this for my own selfish reasons. Its enuf tht i had, enuf tht am havng... I really wish to be left alone really. My blog wud be more or less lyk my personal diary...written in public. Thats the exact reason y i chose to write al dis wid a pen name...
Now reason for dis weird title..."Am saint enuf to face my demon"... this is bcz there are sins of my own... wrongs done by me...thngs done by me...which if sum1 else wud've done to me I'd never ever 4gvn dem...bt I am not running away frm all dose thngs, I agree dat I have done wrong... I agree dat am wrong...am still holding my ground, and i dnt own any apology fr tht to ne one...
Luvng sum1 is nt wrong....right....but wt wud u say...if sum1 luvs 3 grls at a tym...palyboy, bastard, cheat...wt if he says dat he srsly luv each ine f dem wid ol his heart, evne if one f dem had lft him... evn if one amng d odr two knws dat he's havng one more grl, nd he belongs to her only no matter wt...dat too bcz his foolish pride is d reason... Ah! PRIDE...nw u guys will question ovr whr d fuck is ur pride nw wen u r cheating on bth f dem... Bah! humbug isnt it...
Still m proud of evrythng I've gt.. cuz I have earned every bit of it through my hard headedness...nvr begged fr nethng in frnt f neone..
And yes, I love all 3 of them... one who left me and other two who are ready to leave nethng fr me...
YES apart frm all that bad that I am this is the biggest sin I am doin, hurtng two spcl ppl f my lyf who luv me so mch...cheating on them...
and hating every inch f myslf and every moment f my lyf in doin so...bt stilll proud...proud f bth f dem...
Dis is my demon, who I face every day I luk in mirror, every time i read their texts, every time I tok to dem... It pains, bt I am ready to face any pain, any damnation whichevr comes my way... and yes m being selfish I dnt wnt to lose any of them...
hmm..
cya soon...
